After having two miserable weeks with pain I haven't had for a long time, I opened my newspaper today to find it is FRIDAY! I really thought today was Wednesday or Thursday. I did a little running around yesterday but nothing felt like it was a Thursday.
So I've been really fighting the past few days to find some relief from the chronic pain. (I just had a thought that maybe I should give it a name - guess I'll toss that around for a while!) I broke down and made the call to my caregiver. I have never - repeat, NEVER - taken a drug that wasn't prescribed for me except some over-the-counter stuff for colds, headaches, and the like. I reiterated that I won't smoke the medical marijuana, that I am most interested in edibles and I did talk briefly about using a vapor unit. Right now I am in so much pain I can't really think straight and writing this is helping to take my mind off things.
Tom has someone to help him with his caregiving services. His name is Ray (changed for privacy) and he was very compassionate. I hope to meet with the two of them tomorrow and I'll have my hubby with me so I can get his input, although he's just as in the dark about this as I am. I'll mostly be going on their counsel and prayer.
After I got off the phone I experienced more nausea but I don't know if that's due to nerves or the pain. I know the MMJ will help with the nausea, pain and the insomnia I've had lately. Sleep during the past couple weeks has been rare - many meds I've been able to rely upon before haven't touched the sleeplessness. I have thought (more than once), "Some medical pot would really help right now..."
This is still all very scary to me but I know I have two really compassionate guys to help me through this and my hubby is always there with the hugs even though he feels awfully helpless when he can't do anything. I'll let you know how my first experience with MMJ goes. Cross your fingers and say a prayer because I need them right now!
